just because you feel it doesn't mean it's there.

i'm better than this.
i'm better than the hurt that i bring on by myself.
i'm better than doing what "feels good."
i'm better than letting seemingly insignificant road blocks comprise a barricade.
i'm better than dodging pain&clinging to an image of what i want rather than what is.
i'm better than self-sacrificing.
i'm better than minimal masochism.
i'm better than how i treat myself.
i'm better than how others treat me.
i'm better than playing games.
i'm better than protecting my imperfections under a facade.
i'm better than anything that's not honest.
i'm better than pretending i'm naive for convenience.
i'm better than unrequited.
i'm better than 22.
i'm better than falling in love for an hour.
i'm better than falling.
i'm better than guarded.
i'm better than the same tears.
i'm better than battling between my head and my heart.
i'm better than up at 1 AM on a sunday.
i'm better than who i pretend.
i'm better than a few extra pounds.
i'm better than sleep deprived.
i'm better than overwhelmed by what's under my control.
i'm better than competing.
i'm better than disloyal.
i'm better than anything less than my best.
i'm better than the kardashians :)
i'm better than lost.
i'm better than confused.
i'm better than fueling the fire.
i'm better than overthinking.
i'm better than underthinking.
i'm better than regret.
i'm better than knowing but doing it anyway.
i'm better than missing what was.
i'm better than hoping for what could be.
i'm better than lazy.
i'm better than false hope.
i'm better than hopelessness.
i'm better than leaving my dreams stagnant.
i'm better than anything less than tackling my dreams with ferocity.
i'm better than you because i live on the Upper East side of Manhattan.
i'm better than my best.



i'm not.
-k.