the trifecta.

everything is turning up hensler right now.

i don't normally write about things like this. it's kind of embarrassing to share, but we met online. i begrudgingly admit that this crush has been developing for a while now. i hadn't told too many people about it--i was sick of getting hurt and getting my hopes up.

so we met in person. i hoped that my hair looked alright. i don't normally get jittery about these things, but i couldn't deny the growing feeling in the pit of the stomach that we both may feel a real connection; that intangible something everyone looks for. i felt my heart swelling in my chest, pounding as loud as the thoughts in my head. i clasped my sweaty palms with an uncomfortable nervousness. he greeted me with a friendly, genuine smile. it was so exciting from beginning to end considering how routine it breaks down on paper. we waited for a table to open up, he offered me a drink, but i politely denied. after a short wait, a table opened up. out the window to my right was a beautiful view of the city that i underappreciate during the daytime. it's always uncomfortable when there are more chairs than people. it's less awkward if you sit across from each other rather than next to each other--it's easier to make eye contact--a common trick. he started to ask questions about who i was--not those typical where are you from, how many siblings do you have type of questions, but i could tell he really wanted to grasp who i was. i countered with (hopefully)clever questions of my own. everything seemed fairly normal. anything that a young lady would put on her checklist came through (personality, financial stability, etc). in one short hour, i was one of the lucky few to find that inexplicable chemistry that everyone looks for. i was giddy with excitement and couldn't wait to hear from him later that week. normally meeting someone for the first time isn't that big of a deal, but i don't fall in love easily, and head over heels doesn't seem that far fetched with this one. i had to slow myself down to stop thinking about the future we could have.

i knew it was love at first sight with this PR firm. i've had a PR crush on LaunchSquad PR since the first time i saw them in PR weekly. and yes, i'm a nerdy enough 23 year old that i follow a trade magazine.

when i was younger i dreamed of being everything from a dancer, to a veterinarian, to a New York Yankee, to a lawyer, to a sports broadcaster. when i got into college, as mentioned in previous posts, i developed a slightly more corporate dream of practicing PR. it's been said that you can't explain to your own mother the definition of "Public Relations." in fact, there are people in this world who think they are practicing PR, and are actually practicing marketing or advertising. with this murkiness, it's easy to see how every firm can do PR a little differently. thus, wide-eyed aspiring PR practitioners/artists/employees/nerds often develop favorites. the lucky ones, and hopefully talented and proactive ones, get hired by their PR superheros, and in this economy are lucky to get hired at all. this Monday, it wasn't a bird, it wasn't a plane. it was LaunchSquad PR calling. they proposed to me a job, and i couldn't have said i do any faster.

two hours later, my sister landed an acting gig in addition to her steady acting job. we were ecstatic, frequently checking in with my fly-by-night adventure mom and dad, who are vacationing/working (respectively) in beautiful Phoenix while my dad is on an account in Arizona. for anyone who knows my mother, we are all startled by how good she has gotten at 1)spontaneously going with the flow 2)sitting still and relaxing.

less than a week prior, i was laid up watching post-season baseball (no complaints) and staring at my white walls while dwelling in unemployed self pity and swelling ankle sprain pain (many complaints). earlier i had been piggybacked to the ER by my friend/savior who had noted that my ankle looked like it was pregnant with another ankle. it seemed like a physical representation of the seven months of job hunting that was soon coming to an end, unknown to me at the time.

less than three months ago i was miserably unemployed, my parents couldn't move their on-the-market home, and my sister was an actress who was humming along at a day job.

now, i am going steady with my PR crush, my sister is an actress both to pay her bills and to practice, and my parents will be living in New York at the end of the month and ignored my phone calls today because they fell asleep at poolside. they aren't as sorry as they pretend. they plan to see the grand canyon while they are out there.

it's amazing how life can change on a whim. at one point, life had changed to losing employment status (and an actual romantic break up), sickness and sinus surgery for my sister, and tons of stress and preparation for a house sale.

but that's what's beautiful about spiraling into unpredictable tunnels of change that are sometimes negative; there is light at the end of it. change happens, for better for worse, as long as LaunchSquad and i shall live.

i'll let you know where we register.
-k.



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