i haven't blogged yet this year. i really didn't want to write the whole 'starting now i'm starting over now' blog. those blogs are so token; the killswitch engage of blogs. and i can say that because i admit that i listen to token metal.
why do we continually let the calender determine when we wipe the slate clean? like the holiday season is so chaotic we don't have time to forgive ourselves? and surely during the summer we are too busy with our sun-filled road trips and over sized sunglasses that we can't change our bad habits. we really can't hear our glaring faults over our speeding cars and sublime CDs?
yet year after year myself and others write a mountain of resolutions that we forget by valentine's day because we have either already fallen too hopelessly in love or are too bitterly single to worry about ourselves and the year-long vows we took. this year my resolution is not to let my goals melt away with the winter snow, and let the attributes i am trying to shed be swept up by the spring breeze.
everyone starts the new year drunk out of their minds anyway. so if we start the year diluting ourselves with an outside substance, what is the likelihood that these honest and sobering changes will really last?
this brings about the tug of war between change and acceptance--the great irresolvable tension. if i knew anything about investing i would work on the economy, but investing time is something i will never give up on. do we simply invest time into changing ourselves and the circumstances around us, or do we accept certain attributes and situations and move onto what we hope are bigger and better things? if i had the answer to this, i would probably be making a huge profit off of this blog, and have someone else worry about my investments. and now we are full circle.
maybe we should spend time focusing on ourselves and only the circumstances within our control and accept that which is beyond us. easier said then done. but do i only think we should do that because there really isn't any other choice?
consider yourself new years'd.
-k.
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